Change

I desperately need to change. I'm careening out of control and it makes me so unhappy I could just give up. Here are the things I'm going to change (this journal entry will serve me as a kind of contract with myself to hold me accountable):

1. no more sugar
2. healthy eating so Chiara has good milk
3. daily exercise - even if it's just a long walk because I'm sore from the day before
4. daily scripture study / personal prayer on my knees
5. vitamins
6. LOTS of water
7. no more spending money Eldon doesn't know about
8. self-validation
9. journal writing - even if I'm unhappy
10. forgive Sharon
11. stop taking my frustration out on Eldon (even though he never knows I do)
12. be more grateful
13. use planner to waste less time
14. find ways to continue my education
15. get out of the house every day (not just for work)
16. do hair and makeup every day just for me
17. fulfill my callings well
18. be gentle
19. watch my tongue
20. enjoy my moments and take pictures of them!

That's a huge list ... and I may have to take baby steps with it. But the ones I've put in bold are effective immediately. I just can't live like this anymore.