While we were in Arizona I asked Sharon if she had a pair of flat black shoes I could borrow to wear to church. My back had been aching like crazy over there and the only pair I'd brought was my brown boots. I apologized for inconveniencing her and she just laughed and told me she was flattered by my request. :) What a darling woman.
Anyway, I went to give them back to her that night and she asked if I'd felt comfortable in them. When I told her I had she insisted that I take them back to Provo with me. "They're yours." she said. I was hesitant to take them, but thanked her and accepted her offer. I'm SO glad I did! It's been snowy here and those are the only shoes I've worn for days. I think of her every time I wear them and I'm just so grateful to have gotten to know her better.
She was one of the hardest adjustments I had to make for this marriage. I really didn't like her at first. I feel awful saying it now, but I really didn't understand her. I resented her for a lot of things and blamed her for a lot of other things without seeing where she was coming from. I know it caused Eldon a great deal of suffering to see me dislike her the way I did. There were a few times I was so angry I couldn't even stand to be around her. But the Lord has a way of softening our hearts and He answered my prayers by softening mine enough to see her more clearly. My perspective is different now and it makes all the difference.
In admitting this I hope it's helpful to someone someday. I don't see the point in keeping a record that paints me as a flawless woman. I have my weaknesses. Although I must say I'm getting better at being happy despite them. Perfection is too far away to wait until then to enjoy myself.
Anyway, I went to give them back to her that night and she asked if I'd felt comfortable in them. When I told her I had she insisted that I take them back to Provo with me. "They're yours." she said. I was hesitant to take them, but thanked her and accepted her offer. I'm SO glad I did! It's been snowy here and those are the only shoes I've worn for days. I think of her every time I wear them and I'm just so grateful to have gotten to know her better.
She was one of the hardest adjustments I had to make for this marriage. I really didn't like her at first. I feel awful saying it now, but I really didn't understand her. I resented her for a lot of things and blamed her for a lot of other things without seeing where she was coming from. I know it caused Eldon a great deal of suffering to see me dislike her the way I did. There were a few times I was so angry I couldn't even stand to be around her. But the Lord has a way of softening our hearts and He answered my prayers by softening mine enough to see her more clearly. My perspective is different now and it makes all the difference.
In admitting this I hope it's helpful to someone someday. I don't see the point in keeping a record that paints me as a flawless woman. I have my weaknesses. Although I must say I'm getting better at being happy despite them. Perfection is too far away to wait until then to enjoy myself.
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