I called her

This morning I called Eldon's mom just to talk. I've been thinking a lot about it and I realized that it's not okay for me to have such negative feelings towards her. It was a problem with me, not with her. So I've been praying for a change of heart and an ability to appreciate her. Over the last few days I've been having a feeling that I should call her. I know she's excited about her newest grandbaby and we really haven't talked to his family too much about it ... Mostly we talk to my family because it's the first on that side and my parents are a lot more exuberant about these things. :) I've put off calling with the excuse that it wouldn't be a good time, or whatever. But this morning the prompting came and I knew it was time. So I called, and we chatted easily for over 20 minutes. She told me that she'd been wanting to call me too, and I could tell it had meant a lot to her that I'd make the effort to contact her first. I really find myself loving her. I may not understand certain things, but I'm far too ready and willing to criticize than what is Christlike and acceptable. So I'm going to change that about myself.

Somewhere inside me is a sweet, soft-spoken woman who loves and forgives easily. I need to find her and let her take over my heart. I've been feeling that tug in my mind for a long time. I'm certain that if I will continue to pray and read my scriptures the Lord will be able to give me a new heart and change my attitude to be more fitting of the roles I will need to fill here. I'm so hopeful that He truly will help me ... and our family will greatly benefit from it.